You’re not alone. Just a story of resilience:
I begged, on my knees I begged him. I did everything he asked me to do while he actively destroyed my business and my relationship with my kids, and me.
Almost 30 years of backhanded compliments. He would have birthday weeks and get several tattoos and I didn’t even get medical care. I did all the house and car repairs while he played video games, sometimes with broken bones. He was not active in his children’s lives and we had to walk on eggshells anytime we went to an event .
At the end, he convinced me to try to take my life because I was a waste of space and nobody loved me. And I believed every word that came out of his mouth. I loved him dearly.
I can’t imagine where I would be today if that man hadn’t walked away from me, very likely not alive. And it wasn’t until he left that the veil lifted and I could start seeing him for who he is.
Do the exhaustive list, go to groups, read the books. The way out is through education. And giving yourself some grace.
At the end of the day it became about not letting him win and destroy me completely. He’d already taken everything.
Along the way I found some self worth and peace.
(PS. “The exhaustive list” is by Dr. Guy Winch and can be found here on my website under the tab called game plan drop-down box-rules at #9 and you should read his book; how to fix a broken heart)
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